Dream time, Day 132

I made it.

I have been home, in isolation with my husband, since March 24. 132 days of learning resilience. I was initially sent home from work as a non-essential employee, and by the end of April I was officially furloughed. I struggled for a few weeks with the grief of uncertainty, of the loss of my job identity and human contact, but gradually I began to open my heart to the gratitude of living and still making a living while being allowed to stay safely at home.

These last four months truly have been a gift of time.

I will be returning to work tomorrow, and I am feeling the full irony of the new grief I feel over the loss of my safety at home as I reenter the risks of working closely indoors with other people.

I have greatly enjoyed my time at home, with my husband and our dogs. I did eventually reach 365 Days of Meditation, and I have continued meditating daily, now on day 549! With my gift of time I also added daily yoga and some light cardio to my meditation practice. I have been reading daily as well, which I hardly ever made time for before the pandemic. I have learned quite a bit about what it takes for me to take care of myself and pursue my passions, and I hope to put that learning into action now that I will be losing time for me again.

I hope to continue to grow my gratitude and my self-evolution.